I don’t think I can answer that question.
I posted awhile back and have hinted to it in other posts, but we have been pretty busy so far this homeschool year. Busier than I think we ever have been.
It’s a good busy in some ways. My princesses are really being challenged and they are stepping up to the plate. It’s so cool to see them growing into beautiful God’s girls. I want to say ‘young adults’ but I think as a society we label our kids to quickly into that stage.. so I’ll just stick with God’s girls.
But with all of the new challenges and reworking of our tride and true homeschool schedule, I have found my self in a wierd spot. I’ve been here before and I’m recognizing the signs.
I feel lost at times..
Because of that feeling lost, I’m a little snippy with those around me
I’m not comfortable..
I’m finding what was normal to be uncomfortable
I’m finding the things I usually love either annoying me like crazy or just plain ole boring..
It’s not a physical location that I’m lost in. It’s a spiritual battle I’m a part of.
I’ve allowed myself to get lost here. Pulled off the path, into the weeds, the muck, and the woods.
And as of this morning, I thought I was the only one who could get myself back on that path.
But on a cozy couch, before the sun awoke, God reminded me through the tears that He is the one who seeks the lost.
I don’t think that only means the ones who are unsaved from eternity.
I think it’s the ones who are thirsty for Him
the ones feeling lost in what is usually normal and safe
the ones who are feeling uncomfortable because they are no longer walking alongside Him closely
So I sit here today. Slowly feeling myself back towards the right path. Look unto Him who is the Light and trusting that once back on, I will no longer feel any of those things listed above as long as I continue to follow Him.
Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.” John 8:12